The fears of motherhood haunt me from day to day. The countless decisions needing to make for myself and my child frighten me to the core. I am so unsure of myself these days. There are so many obstacles to overcome in the next eighteen years.
Will I be a good mother? Can I do this alone? It is scary and exciting to explore the adventures of motherhood. Life is a struggle but well worth the ride. Anything is possible as long as you believe in yourself. There are so many decisions to be made before and after the baby is born.
Labor and delivery frighten me so. But what frightens me the most is doing the parenthood without the father around. The questions surrounding the situation as him being the father are questionable. It isn’t a guarantee that he will be around to help me.
For generations before me women have raised children alone. It was a struggle for them, but they made the best of what they had. Can I do the same for myself and my child? I don’t know. I am scared of the possibilities. Will I land a “stable” employment to raise a child? Yes, I have no choice but to do so. Transportation is one of my main concerns as of now.
Life as a single mother is scary someone has to do it. I am a mother to be and need to be the best I can be. If that means working two jobs to make a good life for my child, than that is what I have to do. So many questions lie ahead for my child and I.
I have so many doubts surrounding my pregnancy. I don’t want to do this alone but if I have to, then I have to. My child deserves the best there is to offer in life. I will do whatever it takes to make a life for my child.
There are so many decisions to make. The cost of a good education, food and clothing are my fears. How can I provide for my child? Can I though? I am in my fourth month of pregnancy; I have time to decide on what I shall do. Giving up the child, may be the best thing. But honestly I couldn’t live with myself. I would always wonder and regret the possibilities.
Motherhood is a gift worth experiencing. It is an adventure worth all the fears and doubts I may have. As a single parent, life will be a struggle for me. But I do know I have support systems to help me out as much as I need. There are government agencies to help women in my situation. I have many options to give me a sense of comfort.
Help may be on my side but the thought of raising a child alone still frightens me to the core. I want my child to have a better life than I did. My life was good but could have been better. My mother was a single mother for awhile till she met my step mother. My mother raised two children alone, than I can raise my child on my own two feet.
The key here is to have faith in myself. Honestly I don’t know if I have the faith or not. But I have to keep telling myself that I can do it. Doubts are always going to be there, no matter what happens. Motherhood is a precious gift giving to me.
I am scared and excited all wrapped in one. My mind is made; I will raise this child with or without him in my life. It is my duty as a mother to give this child that grows inside my womb, the best that I can.